Prior to this post, I have blogged only twice this year - my scarcest since I started Orange Juice for the Soul in 2005. To understand why this might be, I revisited my first post where I had listed my reasons to start blogging.
Reason 1: The convenience of wondering aloud
Reason 2: The satisfaction of sharing thoughts with those who chose to read
Reason 3: The fun of seeing my writing published
All three reasons are still alive. And I totally cherish the love I receive from fellow bloggers and the friends I have made through this medium. So what prevents me from blogging?
A good deal of thinking suggests that, for quite some time now, I have found it cumbersome restructuring my thoughts from abstract to concrete. Because I am comfortable understanding myself in the abstract, I find it a task to translate for my readers to the concrete. And there is a certain way of writing posts that I have become used to, that I feel reluctant to change - kind of trapped in my own style, if I can say that.
I need to see whether this is a phase or whether I am inclined to explore other forms of expression. As a teenager, I expressed myself through the poetry I wrote. And then it was through the music I composed. Blogging took over from where music was abruptly halted.
Maybe I will write a book. Maybe make a short film with my digital camera. Or maybe continue blogging as random and abstract as I feel.