Monday, May 07, 2007

WITH HER


No one has ever told me what happiness is supposed to feel like; what the symptoms are. Happiness is something I'm not used to for a sustained period of time (more than two days). If I were writing a dictionary, my definition of happiness would be: "a transitory phase between bouts of unhappiness".

Then what is this unbelievable feeling... that I feel now, in her company, with such great ferociousness in wanting to smile all the time? After six years of being in love with her in the most separatist of circumstances - the closer she gets to me, the more I feel physical spasms of deliciousness in my existence and mental orgasms of comfort in her presence! Is this the happiness out of which I was cheating myself all these years?

Today, I walked with her on the streets of Bangalore in the rain that she loves so much. She walked slowly, reluctant to step into shelter and away from the pouring rain. And I walked slower, folded umbrella in hand, reluctant to step into shelter and away from her. I chipped a tooth gritting to control myself from screaming to the world that she is with me.

I cannot resist the temptation to believe that there is a possibility of constancy in happiness.

24 comments:

Orange Fronkey said...

You big old sap! Just kidding. Beautiful entry. Good to read something from you after a long time :)

Narayanan Venkitu said...

I agree...can't beat that feeling.! Rain, umbrella, your dearest in your arms.!

There are certain things money can't buy!

Good luck Vinesh!

Jeevan said...

That's sweet vinesh:) Happy that u had a beautiful time with her and rain. Wish the happiness lives there every time!

Jo said...

This is a beautiful post Vinesh... Walking with your loving one in the rain - Although I never felt it, I can guess it must be one of those divinely feel that only pure love can give.

Arumugam said...

dai.. sollavey illa??

rads said...

aw. That was so sweet. Enjoy forever :)

Arpita said...

Wow it must really be a deadly feeling.Never let it go..

Ok said...

Aaaawww! Thats sooo cute:)

SRI said...

Man, you are caught!!!Hope all that begins well shall live happily!!!Its always a gr8 experience when u r luv struck!!!Enjoy it!

richa said...

:) ..lovely post!

Anonymous said...

being in love is one of the most beautiful feeling and not everyone is lucky enough to experience that. i must say, u r lucky

surgeon said...

hehehehehe nice! good to have you back da!!

Rathi said...

very cute blog...lucky her;-)

Prathima said...

Hey
You always surprise me (sometimes acare me, you know why). I am very happy for you and want you to stay in this state of happiness forever and ever and ever.......

Vinesh said...

@orange fronkey: sap, did you say? ha ha!

@narayanan venkitu: and i thought these things happened only in the movies..

@jeevan: nice of you jeevan.. thanks pal!

Vinesh said...

@jo: the biggest thing i need to be thankful for..

@arumugam: all in good time da.. :-)

@rads: thanks rads..

Vinesh said...

@arpita: deadly is almost the word, arpita :-)

@ok: :-)

@sri: haha - caught i am :-)

@richa: thanks for dropping by, richa..

@anonymous: :-)

Vinesh said...

@surgeon: look who's dancing on the right panel of my blog :-)

@rathi: i'm sure you are clueless about the identity of the girl.

@prathima: there's a thin line between happiness and unhappiness. that line is called hysteria. nice of you to drop by, prathima :-)

Gladtomeetin said...

Hey, You are in love....Good luck and All the best ;-))

Vinesh said...

@gladtomeetin: thank you! :-)

Amrita said...

ahem.. tht was cute... ensoi the feeling :)

Deepa said...

i m really happy for u!!!u gonna marry the one u love!!!

6 years is too great.. n one life tyme's too short!!!

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