Tuesday, November 20, 2007

ONE LAST TIME


Was just thinking yesterday - America is such a great place to live in! Clean surroundings, vast spaces, so many fun things to do, great shopping outlets, restaurants, roads that actually make me want to drive cars - what a drastic difference in the standard of living! Unlike many people I know who miss India like crazy when they're here, I thought I was doing quite well... until now.

Just got news that my paternal grandmother passed away a few hours ago back in India. Numb mind frantically trying to cope with the thought that I will not be able to see her one last time. Because I am here, in America.

What am I giving up? What am I getting? The familiar tongue of death licking all over my neck trying to make me vomit everything that I thought I had chewed, swallowed, and digested about losing the ones I love...

21 comments:

srijithunni said...

Sorry to know that, Vinesh..! My Condolences.!

Sandhya said...

Sorry to hear the news.........
I convey my condolence to you..

Take care.

Chiniiz n Sugarz Mom.. Swati said...

sorry to hear the news vinesh. Are you planning to visit home?

This is something that i have been pondering for some time now. What am I gaining/losing being here!

Jeevan said...

That makes felt about your miss of grandmother, where u couldn't see her one last time.

HUGsss buddy.

Prats said...

Thats when you really feel you should be here with your family, I can understand, but there are your priorities and you have chosen them. So i'm sure you have no regrets.
I offer my condolences, and I really pray that you cope well... *hug u*

Danesh said...

My condolences.
As far as the US goes, never liked being there, maybe Chennai is unclean, not much pizzazz here but Chennai is and always will be home.

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KP said...

Sorry to hear the news
my condolence!!
god bless her soul...
rest in peace!

Jo said...

Tough time... Be strong and see if you can come home.

Sweetstickychewy said...

My Condolences Vinesh..


Warmth

Karthik Srinivasan said...

my deep condolences... may her blessings and wishes always be with u!!!

Compassion Unlimitted said...

Heartfelt condolences..May the departed soul rest in peace
There is a lot of pain in what you wrote.Time is a healer no doubt but we are gifted with memory which can help us to relive the past..
Take care
CU

aMus said...

oh! i came here thinking its been some time and i read this...

this is something which eats me up cos one by one , all teh ones u sort of see as permanent are slowly fading... and you can do nothing about it...

my condolences to you, Vinesh and your family!!!I pray you find the strength to cope!!

Aarthi said...

Hmm this is what we miss when we are away..unbearable...my deep condolences...hope time heals ur pain.

Vinesh said...

All - Thank you for your kind words of consolation and prayer..

Preeti Shenoy said...

I know exactly what you mean.
My condolences.

Alagar said...

my condolences vinesh

Sairekha said...

I'm sorry about your grandma Vinesh. May her good soul rest in peace.

Priya said...

My condolences to you and your family. Been in that situation and I know how it hurts.

Anu said...

Hope ur better now..

but i would like to say that its so sweet of u for a blog like that...

Pointblank said...

condolences! my heartgoes out to u! Death is a strabge thing. It can bring out emotions u never knew lived inside u. But time is the best healer. And ul get over this!